You came into the world after much waiting and anticipation. And then it happened – you happened. On May 17th, 2018, that second pink line began the countdown of meeting you. I didn’t know it then, but your big blue eyes and curly blonde hair (both of which convince strangers I am your nanny, not your […]
Parenting
You are Here
It was time. 12 days early, but ready we both were. My heart was having a hard time holding on (literally) and needed you to be outside of my body. It needed to beat normally again; I needed it to beat normally again. And you were ready enough, they said. So we went. It was […]
White Flags & Foil Art
Aluminum foil, that’s all it was. “For decoration!” she said. “I want to make something for decoration.” “Foil is not for playing,” I say. “It is not a toy.” She turned and walked out of the kitchen and as she did, my heart sank. Her shirtless little torso (because, age 4), blonde curls bouncing, face […]
Bigger Than the Sky
My Sweet Lucy Girl, It is your last night of being three. We have been counting down the days all week. Tonight you wanted an extra book for bedtime, and I caved because, well, “It’s your last night of being three.” I tell you this as if to set a precedent, a proper expectation. But […]
The Communion of Scrambled Eggs
The act of making breakfast this morning was the most sacred moment of my week by far. Maybe of the last month. Nothing fancy, just the usual buttered toast and scrambled eggs (salted please, Mommy). That’s not generally the way I would describe cooking with a 3 year old alongside “helping,” but once again, I’m […]