What a privilege it is to take refuge in you, Lord.
What a blessing – in the deepest meaning of the word – to know that you are fully worthy of my trust. That the act of placing my confidence in you means letting go.
Letting go of worry.
Letting go of insecurity.
Letting go of anxiety.
Letting go of control.
I can do that because the reality is that all of life is experienced with you. You are always present. Though my fickle human heart deceives me at times, you are never far away. Though the voice of shame booms that I’ve crossed the line one too many times, that you’ve finally had enough and have turned your back, you tell me otherwise.
If only I would listen.
You always love. You always hear – and not just hear, but listen.
You know me far better than I know myself. And you are far more worthy of the trust I often place in myself.
Yes, yes you are good, Father.
You are quick to forgive me, always. You never hesitate to gently re-direct my steps back towards your arms of love and away from my own pursuit of destruction and death.
Your desire for me is good. Though the evil of my human heart is still a present reality, one that I fight against daily (sometimes hourly), your goodness still reigns.
Because goodness means knowing your joy and grace wherever I am.
It is because of this constant state of knowing and being with you that I am able to let go of trying to be good enough and accept your promise that you will not turn your back.
Yes, I belong to you. I am yours.
I will take refuge in you.
I will rejoice.
I will ever sing for joy.